2016 is the year I will ignite change. It is the year I will end one phase and begin another, leaving many old patterns and ways of life behind. I create this intention now.
This vacation has been wonderful in many ways; I have spent pleasant time with both my boys, an act that is always far and few between, have lusciously slept late in the morning, and have visited with friends and family. I am blessed! But I have also been incredibly indulgent with my addictions, leaving me drowsy and sluggish.
As I inch closer and closer to the fire, leaving less space to flee, run, post-pone, my body becomes heavy with all that has surfaced for burning. It’s a pregnant feeling, although instead of giving birth to life I will be giving birth to death. As excited I am by this process, there is a piece of me that wants to post-pone, flee, do anything to avoid. It feels daunting, like climbing to the apex of a very steep mountain. The end result will be beautiful, I know! Yet the struggle remains. There is a huge piece of me that is scared I may fail, yet, as I wrote in the poem below, to not try is akin to death.
Photography By April Aronoff
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